What to Do?

I have two friends (a couple) in my life who knew I was writing a dating blog. They didn’t know anything more than that though until last week, when they came across it on Oregon blogs and figured out after not too long that it was me. They decided I should know that they found it and they basically let me know how much they had read. This wasn’t a huge deal but it did make me worried about other friends figuring out it was me.

My biggest concern is that someone who knows the writer of this blog will find things out about people I’ve been with that those people would probably rather my friends not know. Like CB. My 2 friends now know some rather bummer information about CB that they didn’t know before. They also probably now know some information about NG that they would just as soon not have known. A girl has the prerogative to gossip to her friends about her lovers though, right?

On the other hand, being all mushy about NG as I am, I feel concerned about how he would feel about this blog. How would I feel if I found out that he was writing all sorts of intimate details about our sex life on a blog like this? I have no idea what he tells his friends about us and our little activities. Frankly, I think I would be alright with him writing about us so long as it was anonymous and I didn’t have to read it myself. I think that he would be alright with it too. But, and here’s the kicker, if I think he’d be fine with it, why don’t I want to tell him about it? Am I being dishonest in some way by not telling him about it? I’m not profiting from it in any way so I tend to think of it as a diary/public service announcement. It’s a dilemma.

I think what I’ll do is keep writing but be extra careful with the details so that people can’t identify me as easily. That shouldn’t be too hard. Still, I have this dread that I’m going to show up at his house for a date one night and he’s going to say, “Hello there Citygrrrl.” I think I would faint.